It’s been a long time since I truly haven’t had some kind of external event or relationship disturbing my peace, and for a while I thought being at a constant heightened state of anxiety or excitement was what made life interesting. However, after a month of truly focusing on my health and goals I have grown to love the little things that make my life exciting. For instance, I’ve really been living for my night drives with best friends or my after class walks or just calling my grandma. Before, I would do all those things, but my mind would ever be present. I used to get so attached to trying to solve or control situations rather than just living. Now, when someone or something comes into my life that could potentially disturb my peace I am able to fully detach myself from the situation and embrace my energy. Some of my favorite sayings that help me embrace my energy and let go of control have been: life goes on, it’s not that deep, rejection is redirection, and everything happens for a reason. Although I have always said these things, it's not until recently that I have actually applied them to situations in my life where I have no control. For example, I used to stress so much when a guy wouldn’t respond and I would actually not stop thinking about it for days. Now even if it crosses my mind, I don’t feel the need to try and control the situation because anything that is meant to be will be. When you embrace your energy and know your worth there is no need to be upset about a relationship or situation that probably wasn’t for you anyway. With that being said, a peace era doesn’t have to mean cutting off everyone in your life or not going out and having fun because trust me I live for a spontaneous side quest, going to bed late, and talking about boys with my friends for hours. However, you can learn to do all these things without trying to control the way people feel about you. Peace is choosing to live for yourself and falling in love with the uncertainty of life rather than trying to figure it all out.
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